The overall theme and concept of this EP is the seasonality of the acceptance/non-acceptance of death that I think we all cycle through over the course of our lives. This theme is a bit of an extension of Grand Eternal Season (my first album). Where I take the concept of eternal return and apply it to my life.
“Lost” - Fear of loss of memory and self
Is a song about my fears of dying a slow and painful death. I know a couple people with Huntington’s and their mind goes so far from who they were. The lyrics can be a bit playful at times but the humor just masks the real fear.
People with these mental diseases often see people that have died in the people that are living and I am stirred by this. I can’t imagine how painful it would be to see your own mother or father call you a dead person's name and you just want them to know it’s you.
“Deeper Call” - The creation of meaning and goodness.
By looking at the empty pit of our own non-existence we can see that maybe our situation is completely absurd and meaningless. However I think since we are not imbued with meaning the day we are born, it is up to us to create meaning around us every day. By facing my own death every day I am able to push my self to do good and to create.
“Detritus” - The knowing and acceptance of your own mortality.
We're just a part of a larger world and death is just a part of a cycle. We can't control it so accept it. By using this knowledge I want to apply it to the rest of my life. Don’t be bogged down by the things in life you can’t control.
Rebloom - The beauty death creates
When we die we will go back to the place we were born.. a hospital in a literal sense. But also the earth in a greater sense. I will be gone one day and I hope that I’ve lived a good life and that I’ve treated people well. In the end I want to be thankful for the time that I’ve had and not be bitter that it’s ending. Happy to return the energy that was given to me, to a higher purpose and let something else live in my stead.